this one's for you and your little sad soul.

there's always that time where i feel like im in the lowest point of life, where i feel numb; not knowing if i should just cry because of the sadness pulling me down or just smile, hiding the pain. and of course, i feel like i am shattered. trying to find each pieces of me to put them back together. but its hard, because i have left those pieces in someone that i used to love. why? because they keep on saying: "i always have a piece of you in my heart."

and now i am lost inside myself. trying to escape and find a way. searching for someone to be my happiness but in the end, they'll always left. but i am stupid enough to realize that i cant find happiness in someone else's eyes.

people say that its normal having this feeling because i'm still young. but somehow, it doesnt help me to settle yet it makes me feel worst. i cant help but let the sadness pull me deeper and deeper. i am afraid people wont understand and their respond will make me feel worst. so i choose to stay silent.

i am mima and i am not okay. *

and that is why i write. it all started with Ayzel, my journal. i express my feelings there. every time i feel mad, i write it down. every time i feel sad, i write it down. being silent is not okay. you'll be lost inside your chaotic mind.

and that is why i started to write a blog. everything that i write is base on my current and past situation and i really hope that people my age could relate and i could help them. somehow, it boost me up knowing that a lot of people have good responds towards my writing. i am so thankful. you're the reason why i'm still here.

and now, every time i feel like i'm in the deepest, darkest, lowest point of my life, so fragile as if im going to collapse into more tiny little pieces, i always remember that the world began in pieces and somehow made itself whole. ( paraphrase : Collision Course )

its okay to be broken. someday you'll find your missing pieces and make yourself whole.

here's secret for the mad. it'll all make sense again.

* MIM MALONE REFERENCE