my insecurities.

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hi. i'm mima. i am insecure about a lot of things. i am insecure about my own skin. i am insecure about my own body. i am insecure about my own face. i am insecure about how i look. i am insecure about myself.

i hate my big foot. it is so big for me and its making me so hard to find the perfect shoe size. i hate my long hairy legs. you can say i have a hairy body. i grow hair on my legs so fast and its so long. i hate how my legs are so long and people keep on talking about how tall i am for a 13 year old girl. i hate how the bones on my hips are visible and it always hurts me every time i hit on something. i hate how skinny i am. i used to be chubby when i was 10. and i really hate how people are telling me i am too skinny and bony. people keep on judging me how skinny i am. they keep on asking me if i'm on a diet or i dont eat a lot. every time people hug me, they keep on complaining on how skinny and bony my arms are. and i hate that bony arms that are so small and it looks like its just bone covered on skin. i also hate my back. its covered with dots and scars. i hate my face. i hate how its round-shaped. it makes me look like a goddamn ball if i tie all of my hair back. i hate how i have scars on my face. people keep on complaining about that. people dont like me from how my face look. some people at school or somewhere talk about how my scars and acnes are visible and hate me for that. i hate that oily face of mine. i hate that big nose. it is so big it almost cover my whole entire face. i also hate that big lips. its making me look like i am mad all the time. i hate my bushy eyebrows. they keep on asking me to do my eyebrows so it dont look bushy. i also hate my hair. its so thick and messy. people also complain about it because i look like i havent brush my hair since i was born. even though i did, i still look like it. and once i straighten it, people think i'm trying so hard. i hate every feature of myself. i am insecure about everything.

all of my friends also hate their bodies. and i keep telling them, dont be insecure about yourself. if you are not like this, you wouldnt be you.

and so i think.

but if my foot aren't big, my legs arent long, my body arent hairy, my body isnt skinny and bony, i have no dots and scars on my back, i have no acnes and scars on my face, i have no rounded face, i have no big lips, big nose, bushy eyebrows, oily face, big and thick messy hair, and if every single thing i hate about my body isn't there, i wouldnt be me either.

so i love my big foot. i love how big it is i could step on my friends' foot for no reason (yeah its pretty random). i love my long legs. it makes me look taller and thats okay, people have different heights. i can see a lot of things from up here. i love my hairy body. even though i have to shave a lot, its okay. i love them little hair. i love my skinny and bony body. i dont care what people think about it. whether they think i'm on a diet or i never eat, it doesnt matter! i feel comfortable on it. i love the dots on my back. it looks like stars and i feel like i have the universe on my body. i love the scars and acnes on my face. i dont mind what people think about it. i wont cover it up with make up. i wouldnt be ashamed to show it to people. i love my face. that big rounded nose of mine. that big lips. some people like em too. those bushy eyebrows. its thick and i look good on it. i love my thick, big, messy hair. even though people keep on complaining about it, i still like how it looks on me. i like tying it up in any way. i love my body. i love every single thing on it.

i love my insecurities.

thank you Dodie, for making me realize that my insecurities are the things that makes me who i am.

Dodie's insecurities video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dITswf9Z_N0&t=35s

xxM